Thursday, October 4, 2012

Inspiration




I love this picture shot in Paris in July 2007.


It's check in day at the Rogues Angels blog. 

Time to pay the piper! How did you do?

This is the Rogue's Angels weekly check-in. Every Thursday we encourage the Angels and visitors to let us know how their writing is going.

How well are you doing?

Had problems this week? That's ok. Just sit down this coming week and write. Whatever you do, don't let difficulties from the week before get in your way this week.

Every word is one word closer to the finished product.

I finished Catching Meara. Now I'm editing all of the chapters. Next I will send it to a beta reader. Hopefully, I will get started on my May Day anthology soon.

Had a great week? Keep it up, the momentum is on your side.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Sweetest Taboo

Please Welcome author of Sweetest Taboo.

Eva will award a Kindle touch to one randomly drawn commenter during the tour, and a swag pack of goodies to one commenter at each stop. She'll award a $25 Amazon GC to one randomly drawn host.

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Sweetest Taboo
by Eva Marquez

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INTERVIEW:

1. What or who inspired you to start writing?
            I began formal writing when I was thirteen years old, encouraged by my dedicated and driven middle school English teacher. At a young age, I read the book ‘Flowers in the Attic’ by V.C. Andrews and it intrigued me to the point of inspiration. It was not long before I began typing stories up on my DOS-operated computer. Even in my early teens, I focused on writing about female characters that found themselves in difficult situations and schemed to find a way out. My short stories shed light on my fascination with conflict and what lies beneath the surface, and people’s struggle in finding a resolution. At sixteen I wrote my first full-length novel, which was truly the beginning of my writing career.

      Throughout the different stages of formative education, I have been blessed by working with intriguing teachers, professors and mentors who helped to shape my global perspectives. I have also had the unique opportunity to travel the world, studying and volunteering in challenging corners of the globe, which has nurtured and contributed to my love of writing and storytelling. Although writing skills are important, life experiences and my exposure to many different cultures has allowed me to cultivate my literary work throughout the years. Writers are not born, nor do they spring up overnight.

      While writing Sweetest Taboo, I had the opportunity to explore a subject with much social and psychological significance. To delve deep into romantic encounters among unlikely partners and develop an honest but page-turning story has been rewarding. I am fascinated by the complexities of society, and the often-difficult choices presented to individuals, particularly women. Sweetest Taboo exposes the inner dialogue and emotional strategies pursued by those making difficult decisions, and it exposes the mechanisms of manipulation that become useful to characters in getting what they want, regardless of the outcome. What excites me most as a writer, and storyteller, is unearthing the drama that we rarely see, the drama that lurks beneath the surface.


2. How did you come up with your idea for your novel?
      I grew up as an immigrant in a lower-to-middle class Southern California suburb. So I tapped into that experience in ‘Sweetest Taboo’, which chronicles the love affair between a young Hispanic schoolgirl and her much older, married teacher. I drew from my experiences growing up to develop several plot ideas. Romantic experiences are universal. Provocative, illicit and risqué contexts do not take away from the experience of love, and that’s what this debut book sets out to communicate.

      I was also intrigued by the news of one of my former teachers being convicted of [sexual] misconduct with a minor. Since I can remember, I have always been fascinated by similar stories making the news, but like many people, wondered about how these relationships originate and how they flourish under the radar. In Sweetest Taboo, I got to unravel one of these clandestine relationships, one exciting page at a time.


3. What expertise did you bring to your writing?
As a life-long writer, I brought (and continue to bring!) many levels of expertise to my writing. The most important level of expertise I bring is my somewhat unique experiences as an immigrant child, later as an adolescent in an under-served and lower middle class community in Southern California, eventually as an international volunteer living in Southern Africa at the height of the HIV epidemic in the early 2000’s, and more recently as a woman working and living in six continents (within the last ten years of my life). This wealth of diverse experience has provided me with a great deal of ‘content’ and inspiration for my writing, and ‘Sweetest Taboo’ is merely my very first creative outlet, with much more to come. Other levels of expertise I bring to my writing include an impeccable attention to detail in all aspects of my writing process, from plot, character, timeline and chapter development to grammar, spelling, sentence structure and punctuation. I also bring a social level of expertise to my writing, which basically means that because I have lived and learned so much over my relatively brief life (30 or so odd years J), I have access to a great network of diverse friends and colleagues around the world who critique my work at every step. This is perhaps the expertise I value most, as it is ‘external’ to me, but equally important in the story development and writing process.

4.   What would you want your readers to know about you that might not be in your bio?
      I’d like my readers to know that aside from raising my two year old as a single mother, directing a national HIV/AIDS program in Southern Africa and working on the final chapters of my doctoral dissertation (who said women can’t have it all J), I LOVE having fun! That’s probably not inherent in my bio since most bios tend to be quite serious. However, I am a very normal young woman from Southern California who enjoys life, loves to travel, loves to discover cultures and learn about cultural history, and enjoys a good sky dive, bungee jump and extreme sport here and there to make life interesting!


5. As far as your writing goes, what are your future plans?
      Although I did not intend on ‘Sweetest Taboo’ being part of a series or trilogy, I decided that my next literary project would embark upon the story before the story, so to speak. Readers really want to know what Isabel was thinking when she became intimate with her school coach, they want to know how she could have gotten herself into such a mess, a mess that involved the authorities and potential prison time for Mr. Stevens, the man she loved most. So what I am doing is writing the prequel to ‘Sweetest Taboo’ that explores Isabel’s childhood and early adolescence as an immigrant in a Los Angeles suburb. Readers can expect complex and somewhat disturbing revelations, some violence, and definitely some tears. Then of course, there will be a sequel to ‘Sweetest Taboo’, where readers will learn about Isabel and Tom’s journey and what their relationship had in store for them. The stories I weave will always include trials and tribulations, but they will also include redemption and hope.

6. If you could be one of the characters from this book, who would it be and why?
Easy! I would be Isabel. Having been 16 and loved every minute of it, I can relate to her crush on Mr. Stevens (let’s be honest, what girl did not have a crush on one of her handsome teachers while in High School?). I remember one of my crushes fondly…ah….Mr. Ferris! What girl in my class did not have a crush on this handsome substitute teacher? He was young, tall, muscular in all the right places, blue eyes, brown hair, sparkling smile, dimple where it belonged, boyish good looks, and flirtatious (or at least we liked to read into his playfulness). I can’t imagine any one of us would have turned him down should he have tried to kiss us, so in a scheming ‘bad girl’ kind of way, I would have LOVED to have been in Isabel’s shoes to see what it would feel like to be revered by that crush we all had at one point in time. Also, I would have liked to see how I would have reacted to the situation. I know for a fact that I would have NOT rebuffed Mr. Ferris…I mean, I dreamt about the man! But, would I have chased him as Isabel did? Would I have followed my heart as intensely as Isabel did? Would I have risked it all, just to get close to him? I’d like to think I perhaps wouldn’t, but who’s to know? For these reasons, I think if I could be any single character in ‘Sweetest Taboo’, I would be Isabel.

7. Can you give us a sneak peak into this book?
Isabel Cruz was fifteen years old when she met Tom Stevens. She was 15 when they – and sometimes reckless – fascination. When he finally approached her after swim practice and told her that he shared her feelings, it was the start of a forbidden and dangerous relationship.

Readers can join Isabel as she makes her way through this dark love story, hiding from teachers, lying to her parents, and defying the authorities to make a life with the man she loves. Watch as she discovers the wonders of love and romance, and the terrible betrayal of jealous friends. And cry with her when she learns the hard truth about life and the people in her world. Sweetest Taboo is inspired by the true and tragic stories of students who fall in love with their teachers, and live with the hard truths of forbidden romances. In a world full of after-school specials on sexual predators, this touching book seeks a different path, casting both student and teacher in a gentle light, and showing that true love may lie at the base of even the most illicit romance.

8. Do you belong to a critique group? If so how does this help or hinder your writing?
As I mentioned in a previous response, my critique group is informal and social. In essence, the group is made up of a handful (or perhaps two handfuls!) of friends, colleagues and acquaintances from across the globe. These people are interested in my work and are always happy when I bounce ideas off of them, and they also enjoy providing me with critical feedback on outlines, chapters, and manuscript drafts. I truly believe that close group of critics are one of the secrets to the success of ‘Sweetest Taboo’, and by success I mean the quality of the book, as opposed to sales success (the book has not launched yet, so there is no claim to that kind of success yet J). I can’t say that this group has hindered my work, but it certainly has slowed my creative process down. Also, there are times when I completely disagree with one or many critiques based on what I know of the critic (i.e. ‘Tim’ is okay with graphic sex scenes so he wants me to include more of those, while I believe that they are far too graphic for the genre, my readers, and even my comfort level). But, with all quality literary work, I balance the critiques with my own good judgment and only include revisions that I truly believe my readers will appreciate and enjoy.

9. What is the best and worst advice you ever received? (regarding writing or publishing)
The best advice I’ve ever received has been from my father, who is my number one supporter in all things. When I told him I was writing a book, he said to me ‘whatever you set out to do, make sure you do it with all your might and energy and never do it halfway, because if you do, you’ll just have to start over again when it fails’. Although there are some positive and negative elements in that statement, it rings true to this day. The absolute worst advice I’ve ever received is not to self publish my book. There is a lot of literary opinion about this topic out in our cyber world already, so I won’t elaborate on this here, but what I will say is that advice kept ‘Sweetest Taboo’ in a folder on my laptop for years. When I finally saw the light, after a great deal of research on the subject, I decided to let go of that terrible piece of advice and move forward with self-publishing and I’m incredibly happy I did!

10.    Do you outline your books or just start writing?
I am definitely a plotter. My inspiration for ‘Sweetest Taboo’ came in spurts, but those spurts were carefully jotted down in a notebook as chapter titles and brief descriptions of what I wanted to include in each chapter. Plots, characters and timelines were all carefully plotted which made the writing process flow. Because of the comprehensive outline, I was able to develop each chapter at one sitting. However, as I wrote I also became somewhat of a panster, weaving new plots, characters and climaxes into each chapter. In essence, my writing process can be described as highly organized and plotted, with room for creative ‘interventions’ when the inspiration hits.

11.    How do you maintain your creativity?
Fortunately, this is a non-issue for me because of my environment, lifestyle and access to different cultures, people, and the different experiences I live on a day-to-day basis. At any given point, I feel I have about five different stories inside of me dying to get out, dying to be drafted into full-length novels. The biggest challenge I encounter, as an author, is not inspiration and creativity but rather a lack of time to dedicate to developing these stories, characters and plots. I think I’m just one of those individual’s blessed by life, so creativity always surrounds me in one way or another. Now, if only I could quit my day job and dedicate myself to writing…that’s really what I’m looking forward to!

12.    Who is your favorite character in the book. Can you tell us why?

This is such an interesting question, and a difficult one at that! I have had quite a bit of feedback on the characters from my readers, all questions that make me want to develop character interviews for each prominent character in the story. Readers seem to want to know more, to get to the bottom of why certain characters did what they did. I suppose if I had to choose a favorite character, I would choose Liz. Although I love both Isabel and Tom for their steadfastness during times of extreme danger, I really love the loyalty that Liz shows for her best friend Isabel. In spite of the circumstances, in spite of being questioned by the police, in spite of so many pressures, Liz does not waver and comes to Isabel’s defense time and time again. Her loyalty, support and sincere love for her best friend Isabel is one of the things I love most about this story. We often see so much rivalry among high school aged girls, and we see girls backstabbing their friends or gossiping and divulging other people’s secrets, but in Sweetest Taboo we get to experience a true friendship between two high school girls, and a friendship that endures even under the most intense pressures. One of my favorite scenes from the book is when Liz convinces Isabel to return to their high school. In this scene, we see Liz offering Isabel her support and her protection should any rumors or gossip ensue about Isabel’s relationship with Mr. Stevens. Had it not been for Liz, I think Isabel would have attended the rival high school and likely never gotten back with Mr. Stevens.




BLURB:

Isabel Cruz was fifteen years old when she met Tom Stevens. She was 15 when they started dating, and 16 when she lost her virginity to him. By the time she turned 18 and went to college, everything had fallen apart. This hadn’t been an ordinary love, though. Not a love between two dear friends, or even high school sweethearts. This had been the most taboo sort of love there was: a relationship between a student and her teacher. Isabel started her high school career as a normal student, but set her sights on Tom Stevens as soon as she met him, and pursued him with an intense – and sometimes reckless – fascination. When he finally approached her after swim practice and told her that he shared her feelings, it was the start of a forbidden and dangerous relationship.

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EXCERPT:

From Chapter 1:

“Tom?” I asked in a hoarse whisper, my stomach full of butterflies. It was still a little strange to call him by first name, even after all these years. Especially when everyone else at Royal Oaks High called him “Mr. Stevens.”

“Isabel,” came the familiar voice. “How are you?” His voice was gentle and deep. It soothed me instantly, the same way it had when I was fifteen. There was an edge to his voice tonight, though, and I sensed that there was something bothering him.

"Is something wrong?" I asked. I didn’t want to admit that I already knew exactly what it was; my high school graduation was coming up. It would bring an end to our current arrangement. We hadn’t talked about our future yet, but I had known that it was coming.

After a few pensive moments, Tom spoke.

“You’re my sweetheart," he told me, his voice sad. "I can’t imagine life without you. I don’t want to have to imagine life without you.”

Tom rarely used terms of endearment with me, these days. When he did – in these rare moments when he called me his sweetheart – my heart melted. All of the turmoil, the sleepless nights, the protracted nature of our relationship, became nothing more than a passing inconvenience and very worthwhile. Tonight, though, I knew that the word came with drawbacks. They gave me the courage I needed to say the words I’d been dreading.

“My graduation won’t affect our relationship, you know that," I told him. "Look at how much we’ve been through together. If we made it through all of that, we can make it through anything. Tom, I want to be with you always, no matter where life takes me after graduation.”

I spoke passionately, fully believing in what I said. I was absolutely devoted to this man. But somewhere deep inside, I knew I was being dishonest. Neither of us wanted our relationship to change, but it was clear that things were going to change, and soon. I had just been offered a place at a small, private liberal arts college on the East Coast. The choice had been difficult because although I wanted to stay close to Tom, I also wanted to move forward with my life. In the end, I accepted the offer. Tom hadn’t really reacted when I told him. It hadn’t affected our relationship. Now, though, the cracks were starting to show.

 “I want to believe that,” Tom answered quietly. “I loved the last letter you wrote me. Every time I read your letters, I feel like I’m sixteen again. I feel like I’ve come out of a deep sleep." A pause, and then, "I can’t lose you, Isabel. You’re the reason I wake up in the morning; I can’t love anyone more than I love–”

Suddenly I heard a distinct click on the line. My heart plummeted.

“Did you hear that?" Tom snapped, his tone suddenly terse. "Did someone pick up the phone at your house?”

 “Hold on a minute, let me check inside.” I slipped back inside and listened, but the house was completely quiet. The kitchen phone was on the counter, my mom’s office was dark, and I was holding the only other phone in the house. 

"Who picked up the phone?” Tom repeated, worry coloring his voice.

The click had not originated on my end of the line. I should've been relieved, but my panic rose even more.

“Tom," I whispered into the receiver. "It wasn’t here, everyone’s asleep..."

“I have to go," Tom interrupted abruptly. "Danielle's coming.”

There was another click, and the line went dead.


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AUTHOR Bio and Links:

Born in Buenos Aires, Argentina, daughter of European immigrants, Eva Márquez has spent most of her life outside of her home country. At the age of five, Eva accompanied her parents to the United States, where the family settled permanently. After graduating from university, she went on to complete graduate studies in International Relations in Spain. Eva received her Master of International Studies degree from the University of Sydney and went on to work in the global health field in Sub Saharan Africa and South East Asia. Eva currently resides in Southern Africa.



Links:
www.SweetestTabooBook.com (website AND blog)
@EvaAuthor (Twitter)
www.goodreads.com/eva_marquez (GoodReads)
http://youtu.be/flff2TcA4AQ (Official Book Trailer on YouTube)

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Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Shadow's End


Please welcome Courtney Rene author of Shadow's End. Shadow's End is the third book in a three book series. The first book is Shadow Dancer and the second book is Shadow Warrior. This is a paranormal YA series.

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INTERVIEW:

1. What or who inspired you to start writing? 
Although I find inspiration from many different avenues and from many different people, nothing in particular, really lit the writing fire under me.  I have always been a story teller from as far back as I can remember. It is just who I am. 

2. How did you come up with ideas for your books? 

This series was one of those, ah ha, moments.  I was simply having a conversation about what the best superpower would be.  Everyone always says flying, or super speed, or mind reading.  Mine has always been the desire to be invisible.  I wrote the first book in this series with that main desire in mind.  The idea just took off from there.  

3. As far as your writing goes, what are your future plans? 

Future plans, well let’s see.  I have lots of great ideas brewing.  I want to write a book just from the point of view of Leif.  I have an angels and demons story that I am currently tinkering with.  I also need to get started on book 2 of the Howl in the Night books.  I have so much going on and waiting to start that I don’t even know where to begin.  Let’s just say, I have loads of future plans.

4. If you could be one of the characters from any of your books, who would it be and why? 

I would be Sunny, from the Shadow Dancer series.  Not only does she get the power to be invisible, but she also gets to be a queen!  Hello!  How awesome would that be?  Add to that an awesome boyfriend and great friends, and who wouldn’t want to be her?  

5. Do you belong to a critique group? If so how does this help or hinder your writing? 

No.  I don’t belong to a critique group, anymore.  I used to, but I found that I ran out of time for it.  I miss having that group to bounce ideas off, and I miss the interaction with other writers.  It just wasn’t fair to take up their time with my writing, when I was finding less and less time to work on any of theirs.  Maybe one day I will get back into a group, but for now?  No.

6. When did you first decide to submit your work? Please tell us what or who encouraged you to take this big step? 

I have been writing for years, since way back.  I never felt that any of my writing was good enough or the story full enough to actually submit it to anyone though.  Then I took the plunge and enrolled in a writers course though, The Institute of Children’s Literature.  I made my way quickly through the first course, and enjoyed every moment of it.  The last part of the curriculum was to putting together a submission package.  I figured, I had put in the time and effort to create the package, I may as well submit it out and see what happens.  Well what happened was my first submission was accepted and put into print.  That was all it took.  Just a little shove from behind was all I needed and off I went. 

7. What is the best and worst advice you ever received? (regarding writing or publishing) 

The best advice I ever received and I tell this to every new writer that asks me this same question, is:  To write a good story first.  Don’t get lost in all the grammar and format.  After you have a great story, go back and worry about the rest.  People want to something awesome, give them that, and you will succeed.  

I don’t have anything to share in the worst department.  Either I knew it was bad advice and discarded it immediately or so far I have been lucky and haven’t gotten any.  

8. Do you outline your books or just start writing?
I pants it.  Every time.  Every single time. I like the fun of seeing where my characters are going and what’s going to happen next.  If I sit down and out-line it all out, and have all the minute details written down, then what’s the fun of writing the story?  I already know how it’s going to end.  

9. Do you have any hobbies and does the knowledge you've gained from these carry over into your characters or the plot of your books? 

I have hobbies all over the place…sorta.  I set out to learn something new every year.  I have learned self defense, blown glass bead making, gardening, orchard care, pond and fish care, canning, crocheting, knitting, wine making, and on and on it goes.  I am currently trying my hand at cheese making.  I can’t think of anything that has played a part in my books accept the self defense.  This doesn’t mean it won’t, but so far, not so much.  

10. Do you have an all time favorite book? 

Yes, it is called:  Ride by Wind, by St. Clair.  Oh.  My.  Goodness.  I love this book.  It’s romance.  It’s violence.  It’s thriller.  It’s historical.  I can’t tell you enough how much I love this book.  If you haven’t read it, go and find it, and read it.  Yes.  It’s that good.
  
11. Have you started your next project? If so, can you share a little bit about your book?

Yes, I have started it.  As I said above, I am playing with an angels and demons story.  I found this old book of the bible that was removed 1000’s of years ago called:  The Book of Enoch.  Then after finding that one, I learned of: The Book of Giants.  These books are the histories / stories of the angels and the demons. Apparently there are a lot of books of the bible that were removed for various reasons.  These were the two that I found fascinating. You’ll have to stay tuned to see what I come up with.  I happen to think it’s a great idea.  We will see how it turns out.    

12. Who is your favorite actor and actress?

Heath Ledge was my favorite.  I still think he is wonderful.  Since he is gone now, I have to say my favorite all time actor is Tom Hanks.  I find him awesome in many ways.  He is a great husband and father.  You never see him in the news for cheating or drug use.  He tries fun and new roles all the time.  He is never stuck in a certain genre.  He has stayed with it for decades.  There are so many great movies with him.  With so many different reasons to like this guy, how can you not love him?

13. What is your favorite reality show?

Sadly, with my schedule, I don’t get to watch much tv, and I do not have DVR (GASP!)  However, I have always found a way to watch Survivor.  I love that show.  It’s the bugs, the whining, the games. The best part though is to see how the people, regardless of their walks of life, start out all normal and then warp into animals is just wild to watch.  

EXCERPT & BLURB:

Shadow's End
Courtney Rene

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The adventure and the struggle contines for Sunny, as the fight for control of Acadia is near. Battle lines have been drawn, not just by King Gideon, but also by the rebels that were once Sunny’s allies. Due to unexpected trips to the ice realm and the fire realm, new allies are found to help build the Army of the Sun. There are new worlds explored. New friends and new enemies made. Ready or not, Sunny must prepare for what is coming as well as decide where she belongs within it all. But…what about prom? What about Leif? What about home? How can she, just a seventeen year old girl, rule a whole world? She’s not even sure if she can get through finals.


EXCERPT

Leif turned his attention briefly to Lucas, who had stayed silent up to that point. “I see you have moved on. Rather quick don’t you think?” he said.

I refused to answer his taunt. Instead, I said to Lucas, “You about ready?”

A red flush of color appeared across Leif’s normally pale cheeks. I didn’t care. I was not going to be baited or made to feel bad for being out with Lucas. Was it a date? It hadn’t been specifically declared that, but it was something more than just an outing too. Maybe I was moving on, but that was my business. Not Leif’s.

“Yep. I’m ready,” Lucas said, then shoved the last bite of burger into his mouth and stood to clear the table.

I did the same, and gathered up my trash and belongings.

Leif suddenly and inexplicably became enraged. Either he was more upset about Lucas than I had realized or he really was going a bit on the loopy side. He grabbed my arm painfully and said, “We aren’t through here.”

“Stop it! You’re hurting me,” I said through gritted teeth. I didn’t want to cause a scene in the middle of the mall. People were already staring.

That was all the action Lucas needed to get involved. He slammed one big hand down on Leif’s shoulder and said as calm as could be, “I think you should release her.”

Leif did let go, which should have made me wary as he wasn’t the give up easy type, but I was too busy rubbing circulation back into my arm to think about it.

Leif spun around to face Lucas. “You can mind your own business. This is between her and me.”

“You made it my business when you laid a hand on her,” Lucas said, not backing down an inch.

Side by side the two were colored very alike, but that was where the similarities ended. Leif had ice blue eyes and Lucas had warm blue, inviting eyes. Leif was tall, thin, but wiry strong. Lucas was tall and bulky with evident muscles and strength.

“You don’t know what you are dealing with here,” Leif said and took a step closer to Lucas. It was like he was daring him to engage.

Lucas though, appeared calm and easy, no hint of aggression. “Yes. Actually I do.”

I began to realize that Leif didn’t recognize Lucas. He really didn’t know who he was. Leif didn’t have any special gifts other than begin a shadow walker tracker. Why then was he being so aggressive?

A wave of confusion crossed over Leif’s features for a moment. He stepped back and regarded Lucas. “You a walker?”

“Among other things. What’s it to you?”

Leif again grabbed my arm, not quite as hard that time, but hard enough to make me wince, and pulled me forward to stand almost next to him. “Then you know what she is,” he said.

I was getting a bit annoyed at being talked about like I wasn’t standing there. I was also getting angry at being manhandled by Leif. Incidentally, the anger is what caused me to pull in a bit of the energy from around us. I only grabbed a small ball of it, but it was enough to concern me. Whether in small or large amounts, energy was just as hard to control.

“Yes, I do,” Lucas said.

Leif leaned toward Lucas until he was just a few inches away from his face, glared hard with half squinted eyes, and said, “They you also know she’s mine. I found her. You don’t get to have her.”

That was it. I didn’t care about the pain it was going to cause me. I purposefully and intentionally, pushed out a zap of energy at Leif, where he held my arm. Not enough to really hurt him, but it was enough to have him jerk his hand off me in surprise and a bit of pain. Rage clouded his eyes for a moment as he directed his gaze on me.

I rounded on him with the full force of my own rage and completely ignored his. “You!” I said and poked a finger into his chest. “Don’t get to own me! No one gets to own me.”

He took a step back. I stepped forward and poked him again. “I get to decide who I want to be with and who gets to be with me.” Again he took a step back, and me a step forward, and I poked him hard in the chest, hard enough to make my finger twinge in pain at the abuse, but I ignored it. “I get to decide. Do you hear me, Leif?”

“Sunny,” Lucas said from behind me. “You have an audience.”

Without taking my eyes from Leif, I swung an arm behind me with my hand up at him, hoping that I conveyed with that one action, to shut up.

I did lower my voice at least. “You had your chance with me, but you chose to lie, to cheat, to keep me in the dark and at your mercy. You don’t get to decide anything about me anymore.”

I turned away from him and stepped back to my table, where I again began to gather up the debris from lunch. “Go home, Leif. There’s nothing here for you anymore.”

“Yes, there is,” he said softly from directly behind me. I hadn’t heard him come up next to me. Then even softer he said, “This isn’t over between us, Sunny. I’m not giving up.”

I glanced over my shoulder at him. The man before me was the Leif I knew. The Leif I had fallen in love with. The ice was missing from his face and his eyes and my heart felt the pain of losing him all over again. Why did it still hurt to see him, to be next to him? “Leif,” I whispered. “Go home. Please.”

Without regard to the people around us, he phased into the shadows and was gone.

“Sunny?”

“Yeah, Lucas,” I said as I stared at the place that Leif had vanished. I was suddenly so tired.

“You okay?”

“Yeah. I’ll live.”

“Um…do you know that you have a slight glow of white around you?”

No. I didn’t know that. I closed my eyes and sighed. “Great.”


 A LITTLE ABOUT THE AUTHOR:



Courtney Rene lives Ohio with her husband and two children.  She is a graduate and member of the Institute of Children’s Literature.  Her writings include magazine articles, short fiction stories, several anthologies, and her novel, Shadow Dancer.  Her website is located at:  www.Courtneyrene.com (www.ctnyrene.blogspot.com).  Please feel free to contact her at ctnyrene@aol.com.

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