Wednesday, April 4, 2018

Rogue's Angels Present: Songs for Lucy by Philip Wilson

Please welcome Philip wilson author of Songs for Lucy

Philip Wilson will be awarding a signed paperback copy of the book to a randomly drawn winner via rafflecopter during the tour.



Songs for Lucy
by Philip Wilson

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GENRE:   Women's Fiction

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INTERVIEW:

What or who inspired you to start writing?
Nothing in particular. Many books I’ve read, even best sellers, left me a little disappointed. A few made an impact that stayed with me long after I’d finished them. After a career in Finance (specifically in mathematics), I was curious to see if I could write the kind of novel that I would enjoy reading.

How did you come up with your idea for your novel?
My first book, The Librarian, was a revenge thriller. It’s getting great reviews and was featured by the Huffington Post as one of the best Indie books in 2017. It would have been easier to try another in the same genre that would appeal to the same audience. However, I decided to attempt something different – more thoughtful, emotive and hopefully more inspirational. In considering possible storylines, the concept of a talented young woman struck down in the prime of life with a terminal disease, seemed to provide a good foundation for developing these objectives. (And I’m hoping that readers of The Librarian who were hoping for a sequel will still give Songs for Lucy a try.)  

What expertise did you bring to your writing?
None. No creative writing courses, didn’t start by writing short stories, no awards. Would not even consider myself an avid reader – too busy with my career. (If that hasn’t scared you off, I hope you’ll give Songs for Lucy a try.)

What would you want your readers to know about you that might not be in your bio?
Challenging question. Favorite music is generally movie soundtracks (the score from Wonder Woman is excellent). If I ever write a non-fiction book it will be titled, “The Secret to Building Wealth – Fire your Investment Advisor and do it Yourself.”

As far as your writing goes, what are your future plans?
Having fun writing. I find it far more satisfying than reading – more creative, more challenging, and certainly more control over the plot and characters. I’m now working on a third novel that should satisfy the readers of The Librarian who were looking for a sequel. It’s tentatively titled, ‘Ayla’s Arc’, and while it’s not a sequel, it is the same genre.

If you could be one of the characters from this book, who would it be and why?
Tough question and no single choice. I liked many of the characters. Jack Rollins, an MBA who quit Wall Street to buy a pub on Cape Cod and spends his days sailing is appealing.  There’s probably a bit of me in Jack – at least aspirationally. I don’t own a pub but I do own a sailboat. Marion Siegel (a relatively minor character) is tough, principled and compassionate. Over the objections of her husband and Allison’s doctor, Marion assures Allison that if she finds the fight more than she can handle, she will help her end her life. Terri Wright, who is facing the same illness as Allison, is determined to make every day she has count, and, in so doing, pushes Allison to ‘fight the darkness.’


Can you give us a sneak peak into this book?
Allison Connelly is pretty, smart and popular.  She has been accepted into Harvard Law School and plans on a successful legal career, marriage, kids and a house big enough to install a tennis court. Then, headaches drive her to the doctor and she receives a diagnosis of terminal brain cancer. With her dreams destroyed and her future uncertain, Allison is forced to confront her fears and rethink her goals.

Do you outline your books or just start writing?
It seems to vary. For The Librarian, I had a fairly detailed outline. In contrast, when it came to Songs for Lucy, I had a rough storyline and just started writing.

How do you maintain your creativity?
Not sure it’s quite on point, but I spend more time thinking than writing. I seem to be more creative when I’m not sitting at a keyboard.

Who is your favorite character in the book? Can you tell us why?
Probably Terri Wright, a young woman that Allison meets and becomes close friends with in the hospice where she goes to die, and who has the same illness as Allison. In contrast to Allison’s occasional feelings of despair, Terri is determined to make whatever time she has left count to the fullest. She’s tough, funny and a survivor. Her character grew substantially from my original intent as I wrote the book, but I liked how her spirit seemed to bring out Allison’s character development.





BLURB:


It’s spring, and Allison Connelly has it all – pretty, popular and smart. With a summer job teaching tennis and starting Harvard Law School in the fall, Allison plans on a successful law career, marriage and kids – and dreams of becoming a Supreme Court Justice.

When relentless headaches drive her to her doctor, Allison receives a terrifying diagnosis that destroys her plans and imperils her life. Devastated, Allison struggles to accept her
shattered dreams and uncertain future. One night, she happens into a small-town pub and, on a whim, takes a job singing, finding solace and a measure of peace in her music. She settles in the town, and from that small beginning finds love, a new life and a new reason for living.


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EXCERPT:

Dean Richardson went to the podium, looked back at Allison, and smiled. “It is now my great pleasure and privilege to introduce Allison Connelly to give the Valedictory Address. Allison has made an extraordinary contribution to our school. Not only has she achieved the highest academic standing in her graduating class, but she captained the tennis team – which won the Northeastern Intercollegiate Championship – and was on both the swim and debating teams. Rumor has it that she also sings occasionally at one of the local pubs. I really don’t know when she found time to study. It had been my hope that Allison would stay at BHU and continue with our MBA program, but... I am delighted to announce that she has been accepted into Harvard Law School. While I’m very sorry to lose her, Allison is the first BHU grad to be accepted into HLS in almost a decade and I’m sure you will all share my pride in her achievement. Allison.”
           
There was a burst of applause. Prepared to stand and approach the podium, she again felt a searing pain over her left eye. She remained seated and again breathed deeply, fighting the pain.

“Allison,” the dean prompted again.

To Allison’s great relief, the pain dissipated. She stood, walked confidently to the podium, and looked out at her classmates and others in the auditorium.

Allison paused and the audience waited expectantly, anticipating the usual salutation acknowledging students, friends and families, alumni, the dean, and the faculty.

“Hi Guys,” Allison began with a smile.





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AUTHOR Bio and Links:

Philip Wilson is a retired financial executive who spends winters in Florida and summers sailing on the Great Lakes in his 32-foot sailboat. Songs for Lucy is his second book. His first, The Librarian, was rated one of the best reviewed books of 2017 by IndieReader and featured in the Huffington Post. Learn more at www.philipmwilson.com.

Links:
Facebook: @authorphilipwilson

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GIVEAWAY INFORMATION and RAFFLECOPTER CODE:

Philip Wilson will be awarding a signed paperback copy of the book to a randomly drawn winner via rafflecopter during the tour.



Tuesday, April 3, 2018

Rogue's Angels Present: Talismanic #Horror

Love was the last thing Glenn Springer expected to find after exchanging the rat race of the city for the country life, but that wasn't all, there was mystery and horror too...



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BLURB

Glenn Springer could hardly believe his good luck. After moving to Maine to escape the Boston rat race, he bought a farm, was successful, and became the envy of his neighbors. Then, he fell in love with the beautiful and bewitching Grizelle Beaumarchais. Was his good fortune all due to a locket he found inside the walls of his old farmhouse? And why was Grizelle so interested in it? Could it have anything to do with her being descended from an Indian shaman? Why were there things about herself that Grizelle wasn't telling him? Was his love for her genuine or was he being subtly manipulated? His luck, it seemed, had its price, and as Glenn began to realize, the bill was coming due.


EXCERPT: Talismanic

 

Chapter Eight

Introductions

Hands in his pockets, Glenn left Town Hall and began walking down Main Street. Hoping to avoid meeting anyone else on the street, he rounded the corner at Founders Way and slowed down. He looked at the numbers as he passed various storefronts even though he knew exactly where Tucked Away Antiques was located. The fact was he was as nervous as a schoolboy working up his courage to ask a girl out on a date.
He didn’t understand why that should be. He’d had relationships with a number of women in the past. He knew the routine. So why was his heart pounding to beat the band? Was this love, real love, not simply romantic adventure that he’d experienced in the past? Again, he pictured Grizelle in his mind, and again, unbidden feelings of desire welled up in him, and not just of desire, but of the need to hold her, protect her, care for her. Feelings he never really had before with other women. Was this what love at first sight was like? Otherwise, what he was feeling just didn’t make any sense.
His musings were interrupted by his arrival before a big plate glass window with the words “Tucked Away Antiques” emblazoned upon its upper surface.
He stopped and sort of leaned forward a little to peek around the edge of the window into the store. But the glare of the outdoors threw the interior into darkness and he couldn’t tell if anyone was present.
In the lower corner of the window, “Est. 1998” indicated when Tucked Away Antiques opened for business and behind the glass, a display area showed off some of its wares, including dark stained furniture with carved woodwork filled with acorns and leaves, filigreed jewelry, books, and sundry other items typical of an antique shop.
But still, there was no evidence that anyone was present deeper inside the store.
Half hoping for an excuse to turn back, Glenn moved toward the entrance and was disappointed to find a sign hanging there that declared “Yes! We’re open.”
Steeling himself, he pushed the door inward setting an overhead bell to ringing.
“I’ll be right with you,” came a feminine voice from somewhere inside the cluttered shop.
Uncertain if he recognized the voice as that belonging to Grizelle, Glenn decided to kill some time by walking around the floor space. Not an easy thing to do. All around were large pieces of old furniture stacked with every manner of knick-knack, bric-a-brac, old fashioned lamps and jewelry boxes. Picture frames, some with paintings still in them, hung from the walls and leaned in corners. Glass display cases near the back were crammed with old shoes, battered books and magazines, glass patent medicine and soda pop bottles, quill pens and ink stands, and rare coins.
A doorway led to a second room and, looking inside, Glenn saw even more furniture; this time piled carefully one piece upon another. They appeared to be more battered than those in the front room and an odor of turpentine suggested that somewhere, someone was working to refurbish items for sale.
Moving among the stacks of dressers, lampstands, highboys, and dining room tables and chairs, he moved from colonial and Victorian era household goods into an area containing items of considerably older and less civilized make.
Curious, he approached a dim corner of the room and was surprised to find leather and beaded items that looked to him to be of Indian make…or was it “Native American” these days? Pouches and moccasins and was that a piece of wampum? All of them darkened and rumpled with age, indicating that they were the genuine article, at least so far as his untrained eye could tell. Looking further, he found a collection of arrowheads, doubtlessly collected by generations of eager boys dreaming of Indian Wars and adventure; iron cooking pots, bone knives, fur hats, and leggings. Also, among the artifacts were less identifiable items, including masks made out of bark, numerous pieces of wood, some carved in the likeness of men and others less so, painted and feathered pipes, painted stones, medicine bags, and other trinkets.
If they were genuine, the store had some interesting stuff here.
Impressed, Glenn wondered why such things weren’t stored in the town’s Historical Society museum. Was there a market for such things? And if there were, how much money was involved? Maybe he should reconsider giving the things he’d found at home to the Society and sell them instead.
“Those are not for sale,” said Grizelle, as if having read his mind.
Startled, Glenn spun about, at first missing the owner in the gloomy storeroom.
“You must have read my thoughts,” he said, waiting for his eyes to adjust themselves.
“Oh! Glenn Springer! From Bed, Bath & Beyond.”
“You remembered. I’m flattered.”
“Who can forget Bingham’s local celebrity?”
“Oh, please, don’t remind me!”
They shared a laugh before Glenn decided to compliment Grizelle on her business.
“This is an interesting place you have here,” he said, nodding in the direction of the crowded room. “I wouldn’t have guessed you had so much room from outside.”
“I wish I had more,” replied Grizelle. “I have a habit of buying faster than I can sell.”
“So you don’t specialize, I take it.”
“I gave that up a long time ago. I found that there was too much interesting stuff out there to turn anything down.”
“Do you rely on people coming to you or do you go to auctions and such?”
Grizelle shrugged. “Sometimes. But there’s not much profit in buying merchandise at auctions. Mostly I rely on what people bring in or if I’m offered first dibs on junk stored in someone’s basement or barn.”
Glenn sniffed. “And you refurbish the stuff you get?”
“Not everything. Only items I feel are worth it. Most of the stuff in here I’ll sell as is. C’mon.”
She led him on a zig zag path along the narrow spaces between piled up bureaus, wing chairs, and hope chests, to a back room where the smell of stain and lacquer was heavy in the air. Harsh fluorescent ceiling lights threw the space into sharp relief along with a long work table covered in sheets of newspaper and cluttered with paint cans, brushes, dirty rags and bits and pieces of carved wood.
Empty picture frames hung crooked on the walls and screwdrivers, hammers, chisels, and carving knives rested in half empty racks. At the moment, a two tiered, multi-drawered dresser sat waiting for the glazer’s attention.
“My current project,” Grizelle said, indicating the dresser.
“Do you have any employees? This rehabilitation stuff must be time consuming.”
“It is, but I get by.”
Suddenly, the doorbell tinkled signaling that a customer had entered.
“I’ll be right back.”
Looking around, Glenn could hear the mumbling of voices from the front of the store and presently, the jangle of a cash register drawer.
“Well, I can eat tonight,” Grizelle said, stepping back into the room.
“You work that close to the bone?” asked Glenn.
“Not that close, but sometimes I worry.”
“Ever think of getting out of the antique business?”
“Uh, uh! I opened this store twenty years ago and I mean to stay with it for the long haul.”
“Like what you do, huh?”
“Love it! I’ll admit there’s not much money in it but I find the work satisfying. I always was interested in history, especially local history. Not wars and politics, but domestic history; the history of the household and family and farm life. Working with old furniture and heirlooms makes me feel closer to the people who once used them.”
“I get it,” said Glenn. “But I couldn’t help noticing before that you do keep track of current politics.”
“How so?”
“When you jumped on Cindy Turner in my defense the other day.”
Grizelle laughed. “Oh, that! You don’t have to pay much attention to politics to be sensible.”
“Maybe, but you sure seemed familiar with Cindy’s political leanings.”
“She wears them on her sleeve, like most leftists. You’re not a liberal or anything are you?”
“Me? No!”
Mostly, Glenn didn’t pay much attention to politics, but of necessity, while working in Boston, he’d gone along with the crowd and made the proper noises about evil Republicans. But if it helped his case with Grizelle, he was glad to hint that he leaned conservative.
“Methinks you protest too much!” laughed Grizelle.
Her good humor, thought Glenn, only intensified the attraction he felt for her. Even in the unforgiving light of the workroom, her features appeared smooth and featureless and a smudge of stain on the side of her nose only made her more adorable in his eyes.
She wasn’t tall, but she was well proportioned for her height. She wore a man’s shirt with the sleeves rolled up past her elbows revealing slim arms and a tight pair of jeans confirmed that her legs weren’t bad either.
Overall, Glenn continued to find himself enchanted with Grizelle, so much so that he failed to pick up on her next comments.
“I’m sorry, what did you say?”
“I was asking how you ended up here,” repeated Grizelle, with no indication of impatience. “Just window shopping or what?”
It took a moment for Glenn to reorient his thoughts and remember what he’d come in for.
“Oh! Yeah, right.” He reached inside his shirt and pulled out the locket. “It’s about this.”
“Ooo, let me see that,” said Grizelle, stepping close.
Glenn was intensely aware of the nearness of her body. He could smell the scent of her hair, the soapy freshness of her skin…it was Ivory Soap.
Taking the locket in her hand, she angled it toward the light for a better look.
“Here, let me slip it off,” said Glenn as he was pulled by her tug on the necklace.
He slipped it from around his neck and placed the locket in her hand.
“I showed it to Archie Finister over at the Historical Commission and he got it open. Look, I’ll show you.”
He ran a fingernail along the edge of the locket and it sprung open.
“Careful,” he said, “I don’t want to lose whatever it is that’s inside.”
Grizelle didn’t reply right away but did show obvious care in handling the locket. She kind of shook it a bit in order to jog its contents some before snapping it shut again and examining its outside more closely.
“Archie didn’t know what that stuff was on the inside and couldn’t date the locket. He suggested I come here to ask you about it.”
Grizelle continued her silence, by now having found a magnifying glass for closer inspection.
“I found it inside the wall of my house,” continued Glenn. “It was built by Nathanael Winsor in 1821.”
“I’m familiar with it,” said Grizelle suddenly.
“The house?” For a moment, Glenn wasn’t sure if she’d heard him and was talking about the locket.
“Yeah. I heard what you’ve been doing with it. I admire you for that.”
“Thanks,” said Glenn, still not convinced she was really paying any attention to what he was saying.
“I’m pretty sure the locket is early colonial,” she said at last. “Maybe even came from England. It’s the insides that puzzle me. Unless I miss my guess, it looks to me like the fine bones of a bird of some kind, mixed with some dried leaves and maybe some seeds. Not the usual stuff you’d find in a war veterans’ locket.”
“Leaves and bones?” questioned Glenn, moving closer to look over her shoulder at the locket that was still cupped in her hand.
“Mm. More like stuff you’d find in an Indian’s medicine bag.”
“Medicine bag? Afraid I’m not up on my native anthropology.”
“Some native peoples used to use them. Small leather pouches they’d wear on their persons holding bits of ephemera they thought were important to them personally. It was common belief that they connected a person to their personal totem which would protect them against disease or in battle.”
She handed him the locket back.
“It’s strange then that articles usually found in one of these medicine bags is held in a locket that no Indian would likely own.”
“It is.”
“Then…Nathanael Winsor went native maybe? How else to explain his carrying around these bits of leaves and bones in his locket?”
“Or it belonged to someone else? Just because you found it in his house, doesn’t mean it was Winsor’s. Maybe it belonged to someone else in his family; someone who hid it in the wall to keep anyone from finding out about it.”
“I suppose that makes sense too.”
“So, what do you want to do with it?”
Glenn rubbed the back of his neck. “Don’t know. Keep it for now I guess.”
“Want to sell it?”
“You interested?”
Grizelle shrugged. “It is an antique. I deal in that stuff. I’m not sure how much it’s worth but I’ll make you a decent offer.”
“Hm. I did sort of promise Archie that if I decided not to keep it, I’d donate it to the Historical Society museum.”
“Sort of?”
“I mean I could change my mind. I don’t know. Guess I’ll keep it for now.” He slipped the necklace over his head and dropped the locket inside his shirt.
“It’s your call. But I’m interested in anything that smacks of Native American lore. You saw my little collection over there. So if you decide you need a few fast bucks, I hope you’ll keep me in mind.”
“I’ve been keeping you in mind for some time now,” said Glenn boldly. Where did that come from? But he was glad he’d said it.
“Oh, really?” replied Grizelle, placing her fists on her hips. A stray lock of dark hair fell across her face. Glenn found the resulting look enchanting.
“Uh, you made a good impression on me at the mall,” he ventured.
“So?”
“So I was wondering if you’d be free for dinner one of these days.”
Grizelle smiled and considered him a moment before replying.
“Not any time soon. I’m pretty busy as you can tell.” She waved a hand vaguely indicating the work room around them.
Glenn was crestfallen.
“I’ll tell you what, the Grange is going to hold its annual harvest dance in a couple of months, why don’t we meet up then?”
“Well, I was kind of hoping…”
“I’m not in a rush to get involved with anyone at the moment,” explained Grizelle, relaxing. “And by then, who knows? You might have forgotten all about me.”
“Not hardly,” blurted Glenn, instantly embarrassed.
Grizelle laughed then, turning him around and gently shoving him in the direction of the door.
“You better get going. I hate to see a grown man blush!”

Author Bio:

Pierre V. Comtois has been the editor and publisher of Fungi, the Magazine of Fantasy and Weird Fiction since 1984 and has had a number of books released by numerous publishers including Goat Mother and Others by Chaosium Fiction in 2015, A Well Ordered Universe by Desert Breeze Publishers in 2016, and Marvel Comics in the 1980s: An Issue by Issue Field Guide to a Pop Culture Phenomenon by Twomorrows Pubs in 2015. Earlier volumes include Marvel Comics in the 1960s and 1970s. In addition, Comtois has contributed fiction to many other small press magazines over the years including Haunts, The Horror Show, Thrilling Tales, and e magazines Planetary Stories and Liberty Island Magazine. Comtois’ fiction has also appeared in various magazines for Cryptic Publications and Rainfall Books as well as such collections as Lin Carter’s Anton Zarnak: Supernatural Sleuth, Eldritch Blue, and various Chaosium Books anthologies. The author has also written a number of books including novels such as Strange Company and Sometimes a Warm Rain Falls; non-fiction such as Our Lives, Our Fortunes, Our Sacred Honor; and short story collections such as The Way the Future Was and The Portable Pierre V. Comtois. Comtois has also found the time to contribute non-fiction articles to such magazines as World War II, America’s Civil War, Wild West, and Military History, many of which were collected in Real Heroes, Real Battles, a book published by Sons of Liberty Press. Also from Sons of Liberty is River Muse: Stories of Lowell and the Merrimack Valley, to which Comtois has contributed a personal recollection entitled “I Was a Teenaged Bibliophile.”


KEYWORDS

Wendigo, Cthulhu Mythos, horror, shamanistic, Native American

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Rogue's Angels Present: Accidental Jesus Freak by Amber Lea Starfire

Please welcome  author of Accidental Jesus Freak

Amber Lea Starfire will be awarding a $50 Amazon/BN GC to a randomly drawn winner via rafflecopter during the tour.


Accidental Jesus Freak
by Amber Lea Starfire

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GENRE: Memoir

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INTERVIEW:

1.     What or who inspired you to start writing?
My mother was a teacher and writer, and some of my earliest memories are of her sitting at her typewriter, pounding out letters and articles for publication in magazines. Perhaps because of her example, I began keeping a diary (which over the years transformed into journal writing), and writing stories when I was about eight years old. I also taught myself to type at around that same age — probably my most-used skill in life .
2.     What elements are necessary components for this genre.
Memoir is an extremely intimate genre in which the writer must be willing to be brutally honest with herself and to make herself vulnerable. It takes a certain courage to open up your life and personal experiences to others in this way. So a memoir writer must feel that her story will resonate with and matter to others, and/or that it may help others in some way. Most memoirs are about overcoming some kind of challenge in life. They are about hope and personal growth and triumph. But in order to write honestly and with impact, you have to be willing to relive painful emotions and to reveal your own dark side. You also have to be as faithful to the facts as possible, while also telling your remembered truth. Memoir writing is hard work, and definitely not for the faint of heart.
3.     What expertise did you bring to your writing?
I have been a writer, in one way or another, throughout my life. Even though in much of my adult career I had written drier, more technical stuff — educational curriculum and procedures and technical manuals — that technical writing taught me how to tell a story and how to structure a logical progression of events.
I also spent seven years writing my first memoir, Not the Mother I Remember. During that time I went back to school to find out what I needed to become a better writer. In the process, I earned my MFA in Creative Nonfiction and learned how to write compelling scenes that draw readers in and keep them turning the pages.
When it came to writing Accidental Jesus Freak, I had been thinking about it for years — ever since I completed my first memoir, really. Though writing it still wasn’t by any means “easy,” I knew what I wanted to say and where I was going. So this memoir “only” took two and a half years to write instead of seven.
4.     What would you want your readers to know about you that might not be in your bio?
I’m passionate about learning. Just as when I taught myself to type when I was eight, I’m constantly engaged in self-directed education of some kind. I think that’s one of the reasons I also love to teach and have created an online school with classes in journaling and memoir writing. It’s all about empowering yourself for creative expression.
Another thing readers might be interested in is that I wrote Accidental Jesus Freak while working fulltime. Even though I have never been a true morning person, I get up extra early every morning in order to write. In this way, with a goal of at least 100 words per day (that’s 36,500 words per year), I completed my memoir. I continue to get up early each day to write, whether it be blog posts or responding to interviews, such as this. I believe if you want to write, you have to make it a priority and carve out the time to just sit down and do it.
5.     As far as your writing goes, what are your future plans?
I’m a bit between writing projects at the moment. I have ideas for a couple of novels that have been waiting patiently for my attention. Now that I’ve gotten my memoirs out of my system, I’m really looking forward to turning my writing focus to fiction. I’ve also been pulling poetry and personal essays out of my archives to see what is worthy of revision.
6.     Can you give us a sneak peak into this book?
Absolutely. I’ve included an excerpt from the first chapter below the interview questions.
7.     Do you belong to a critique group? If so how does this help or hinder your writing?
Yes, I have belonged to a critique group since midway through writing my first memoir. The group helps me in several ways: they point out holes or inconsistencies in my stories, ask questions that force me to bring more clarity to my writing, and through their responses help me to gauge the responses of my readers. If you write, I highly recommend becoming part of a constructive critique group.
8.     What is the best and worst advice you ever received? (regarding writing or publishing)
Best advice: Write from the physical senses, because that is where we experience life — in our bodies. And, write everything, every detail. As my MFA advisor says, “Write the f*#k out of it.” If you have written too much you can always cut later.
Worst advice: You have to know exactly who your audience is before you start and write for them. While it’s good to know who your audience is, you don’t need to know that to start writing — or even to be a successful writer. A well-written story with depth and meaning will find its audience. And if you’re focused on readers instead of the story, you’ll hamstring your writing with useless self-criticism, resulting in insecurity and possibly writer’s block.
9.     Do you outline your books or just start writing?
That depends. With my memoirs, I didn’t do a true outline, but I made a list of scenes or events and then began writing them. As I wrote, the story would take shape, and I was able to structure the order of scenes to best serve that story. With fiction, I find it beneficial to create an outline first. Even though that outline needs to be flexible to change, an outline helps to keep me on track and not get lost in the details of a narrative.
10.  How do you maintain your creativity?
By showing up every day with the intention of being creative. That may sound simplistic, but in a way it is simple — just not always easy. I believe that everyone is inherently creative and that we need to create space in our lives to allow that creativity room for expression. That said, it’s also important to be patient and kind to yourself, give yourself room for struggle and failure along with success, and to nurture authenticity in daily life. Creativity flourishes when we are true to ourselves.
11.  Anything else you might want to add?
No, just a big thank you for hosting me on your blog. And I’m always available via email and through the contact form on my website if anyone wants to ask questions or just chat about the writing process or my books.
● CHAPTER 1 ●
Leaving Amsterdam
May 1985
In two days, I would pack all the belongings I could carry and return to the United States with my husband and two children. Instead of the excitement and sense of adventure we brought to Amsterdam ten months before, we were carrying back the heavy weight of failure. We had sacrificed everything in order to make the move—our house, our belongings, most of our savings—and now we had nothing left. I was no longer sure who I was or where to call home.
I exited the doors of Youth With a Mission’s city headquarters for the last time and crossed the street to wait for the tram that would take me to Amsterdam’s Central Station. From there, I would catch the ferry to return to our apartment in North Amsterdam. As I waited, I gazed across the street at the mission and the row of tall brick buildings it sat next to. Cars and trucks and bicyclists jockeyed for space in a chaotic rush-hour dance accompanied by the beeping of horns, the dinging of bicycle bells, and friendly people shouting to one another. Women carried home bags stuffed with bread and bright bouquets of flowers for their dinner tables. I inhaled the smells of steel and diesel, familiar and comforting after nearly a year of living and working in the city. Whiffs of cigarette smoke from passersby mixed with the moist, slightly salty air of the nearby canal. I never thought I could love a city this much.
It was the last time I would hear the chaotic city sounds, the bicycle bells, the clanging of the trams. It was the last time I would see these people in this place on earth. The thought made my head swim.
I looked again at the buildings across the street. It was hard for me to comprehend how Youth With a Mission had been the center of my hopes and dreams less than a year ago. We had come in answer to an internal call to serve God with our music, but everything had fallen apart. Mixed emotions—anger, fear, confusion, and disappointment—roiled inside me like crabs thrown into boiling water. What had I done wrong that I should be punished like this? Why had God abandoned me?
That’s when I saw Floyd McClung, the charismatic leader of Amsterdam’s mission, on the opposite corner. When the light changed, he stepped confidently off the sidewalk and strode across the street. Tall and blond and well built, handsome in his suit and white shirt, he would have looked at home in any boardroom.
With a sick, empty longing, I watched him come toward me. For four of those ten months I had worked for this man in the name of God. I had answered phones and typed letters, organized transportation and hotel rooms for foreign religious dignitaries. I had learned to use the telex machine and communicated with mission offices all over the world. I had worked as one of his secretaries in a small, wood-paneled office, where he had walked past me and into his office each day as though I were invisible.
I watched as the man who had held complete power over my life and that of my husband and children for the last 312 days, who had barely spoken directly to me, advance. I expected him to pass by me, where I would remain unseen and invisible as I had always been. Instead, he stopped in front of me, a sympathetic smile plastered on his face.
“We will miss you,” he said, his voice warm and smooth. His expression had changed to one of concern and compassion, but his cool eyes looked past me, as if I were already gone and he was seeing my future. I looked up at him, willing his eyes to meet mine, willing him to see my brokenness, but his eyes remained distant. I wondered what was going through his mind. Did he feel ashamed or conflicted? Was that why he would not meet my eyes? Or was I simply not important enough to look at? Did he care at all about me or my family?
Without warning, he stooped and kissed me lightly, briefly brushing my cheek with his lips. Then he straightened and resumed walking like a man who knows his place in the world.
Stunned, I raised my hand to my cheek. His kiss burned as though he had placed a hot ember against my skin instead of his lips. It was, I thought, eerily like the kiss of Judas, a kiss from the man who had taken away my dreams and delivered me into the hands of pain and loss.
The ghost of his lips on my cheek opened a sudden abyss of grief, and I felt my knees give. The world swayed and dropped away, everything around me going soft and gray. The traffic noise receded into a fog as my vision telescoped into grainy static. I managed to remain standing by steadying myself against the pole of a street lamp and was surprised to realize, when I moved my hand away from my face, that it was wet with tears.



BLURB:

In 1973, Linda was a flute player and music major at a California community college, until she met and fell madly in love with a charismatic piano player, plunging into his world of music-making and drug-fueled parties. When, just three weeks after their wedding, he reveals that he's been "born again," Linda makes the spontaneous decision to follow him into his new religion and, unwittingly, into a life of communal living, male domination, and magical thinking.

With unflinching candor, Amber Starfire chronicles her journey as Linda Carr into the evangelical church culture, where she gives up everything for her husband and their music ministry. But in the process, she loses her most valuable assets: her identity and sense of self-worth. It is only when Linda returns to live with her birth family and faces her complicated relationship with her mother that she finds new purpose and the courage to begin to extricating herself from the limiting beliefs of her past.

Accidental Jesus Freak is the story of one woman, one marriage, and one kind of fundamentalism, but it is also the story of the healing that is possible when we are true to ourselves. Both a cautionary tale and celebration of personal empowerment, Accidental Jesus Freak is a powerful reminder for anyone who seeks to live a life authentic to who they truly are.

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EXCERPT:

I exited the doors of Youth With a Mission’s city headquarters for the last time and crossed the street to wait for the tram that would take me to Amsterdam’s Central Station. From there, I would catch the ferry to return to our apartment in North Amsterdam. As I waited, I gazed across the street at the mission and the row of tall brick buildings it sat next to. Cars and trucks and bicyclists jockeyed for space in a chaotic rush-hour dance accompanied by the beeping of horns, the dinging of bicycle bells, and friendly people shouting to one another. Women carried home bags stuffed with bread and bright bouquets of flowers for their dinner tables. I inhaled the smells of steel and diesel, familiar and comforting after nearly a year of living and working in the city. Whiffs of cigarette smoke from passersby mixed with the moist, slightly salty air of the nearby canal. I never thought I could love a city this much.

It was the last time I would hear the chaotic city sounds, the bicycle bells, the clanging of the trams. It was the last time I would see these people in this place on earth. The thought made my head swim.

I looked again at the buildings across the street. It was hard for me to comprehend how Youth With a Mission had been the center of my hopes and dreams less than a year ago.



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AUTHOR Bio and Links:

Amber Lea Starfire MA, MFA, is an author, editor, and creative writing coach whose passion is helping others tell their stories. She has published two memoirs: Accidental Jesus Freak: One Woman’s Journey from Fundamentalism to Freedom (2017) and Not the Mother I Remember: A Memoir — finalist for both the 2015 Next Generation Indie Book Awards and the 2013-2014 Sarton Women’s Literary Awards. She has also published several books of non-fiction, including Journaling the Chakras: Eight Weeks to Self-Discovery, and Week by Week: A Year’s Worth of Journaling Prompts & Meditations. Amber is co-editor of the award-winning anthology, Times They Were A-Changing: Women Remember the '60s & '70s. Her creative nonfiction and poetry have appeared in numerous anthologies and literary journals.

Website and Social Media Links:
http://www.writingthroughlife.com
https://writingthroughlife-onlineclasses.teachable.com/
https://www.facebook.com/writingthrulife/


Amazon Link for Accidental Jesus Freak: https://www.amazon.com/Accidental-Jesus-Freak-Journey-Fundamentalism/dp/0999444107/

Barnes and Noble: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/accidental-jesus-freak-amber-lea-starfire/1127757981

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